Of conversations and a run in the gym

GaryLWK86 - Making a difference. Dream big. says:
holidays was abit redundant
GaryLWK86 - Making a difference. Dream big. says:
ie no work done
GaryLWK86 - Making a difference. Dream big. says:
though i tried.. lol u had fun?
S says:
i had a very good break
S says:
didn't study much, however got lots of time to think
S says:
and lots of time to change myself
S says:
so, ya...i'm done being a fool and i'm done acting stupid too
GaryLWK86 - Making a difference. Dream big. Public holiday. says:
oh?
S says:
yeah, believe it or not... i have changed
GaryLWK86 - Making a difference. Dream big. Public holiday. says:
in terms of?
S says:
everything...
GaryLWK86 - Making a difference. Dream big. Public holiday. says:
except height haha..
S says:
yeah...that's true
GaryLWK86 - Making a difference. Dream big. Public holiday. says:
i was expecting a "GARY!!!"
S says:
haha....it will come soon...sometimes soon along our conversation
GaryLWK86 - Making a difference. Dream big. Public holiday. says:
ya, haha.. bt wats d reason lar
S says:
well, i was thinking too much, i was very childish and as the result...i hurt those people who really mean alot to me...i don'T want to be like that anymore
S says:
all those were just foolish acts
S says:
now that i got second chance, i will not ruin it anymore
GaryLWK86 - Making a difference. Dream big. Public holiday. says:
*nods* hehe.. wish we all think like dat
S says:
why? what makes you say that? it seems like you had similar experince...
GaryLWK86 - Making a difference. Dream big. Public holiday. says:
haha.. at times lar i guess
GaryLWK86 - Making a difference. Dream big. Public holiday. says:
knowingly or unknowingly..
S says:
you mean you did act childish and hurt lots of people feeling, or...someone who means alot for you...hurt your feeling?
GaryLWK86 - Making a difference. Dream big. Public holiday. says:
i think it cuts both ways
S says:
definitely...and it hurts so much
S says:
when i feel hurt, the other person felt the same way...
S says:
it's not fair for them
GaryLWK86 - Making a difference. Dream big. Public holiday. says:
its give and take lar
GaryLWK86 - Making a difference. Dream big. Public holiday. says:
whether u like it or not
S says:
again, you are right
S says:
Gary, congratulations! I'm really impressed with you and your way of thinking
GaryLWK86 - Making a difference. Dream big. Public holiday. says:
thinking and putting it into action are 2 different stories ya
S says:
it is
GaryLWK86 - Making a difference. Dream big. Public holiday. says:
slowly lar.. it has 2 start sumwhere
S says:
of course
GaryLWK86 - Making a difference. Dream big. Public holiday. says:
n besides, nobody's perfect
S says:
i think you have grown up alot
GaryLWK86 - Making a difference. Dream big. Public holiday. says:
ya.. and fatter too
S says:
not really, la...a bit only
GaryLWK86 - Making a difference. Dream big. Public holiday. says:
bt still haf my own childish mindset on certain things
S says:
it's ok to be childish sometimes
S says:
you know...correct me if i'm wrong, but one thing that i notice last semester and all this long, was that you were actually someone who felt very insecure from time to time, do you think so?
GaryLWK86 - Making a difference. Dream big. Public holiday. says:
in a way yes
GaryLWK86 - Making a difference. Dream big. Public holiday. says:
but learning 2 deal with it lar day by day, 1 step at a time
S says:
yes, i can see that
S says:
i saw it today how you can slowly managed your feeling of insecurity
GaryLWK86 - Making a difference. Dream big. Public holiday. says:
?
S says:
you know when people are insecure, they are unstable
S says:
that's how i felt when talking to you all this long...but i felt that you were much more stable today
GaryLWK86 - Making a difference. Dream big. Public holiday. says:
u'll b surprised if i tell u dat past few months or so my emotional instability fluctuates
GaryLWK86 - Making a difference. Dream big. Public holiday. says:
haha
S says:
yeah...i don't think i need to say much, you know yourself best
S says:
but no, i'm not surprised, i knew it all along that your emotional instability fluctuates a lot
S says:
that's why i didn't talk much with you last sem
S says:
i wasn'T in a very good emotional state as well...
S says:
i wasn't trying to avoid anyone, but i need my own time and i don't want to make anyone worried....that's why i withdrew myself from everyone
S says:
Gary, r u back?
GaryLWK86 - Making a difference. Dream big. Public holiday. says:
yea.. bt wanna to sleep dy.. tired
S says:
ya, me too
S says:
i was about to tell you that i want to go to sleep too
S says:
maybe we can talk again some other time
S says:
good night
S says:
bye
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I can usually only run 1.5 km on the gym's threadmill, but for past few weeks (despite some weight gain), I've been desiring to run more. I clocked up 2.8 km on a few attempts. Duno lar.. on those few occasions, just felt like wanting to keep on running more and more, despite my legs giving in already. And surprisingly the more I ran, the leg power seemed to somehow have a backup source of energy just when it appeared to be running out of steam. Got reminded that in the race we are currently running now - no matter what comes our way, how hard, hopeless, empty and miserable it may seem, it is in such times that one realises that there is a need to press on and go for broke until the end of the finish line.. There is a need to desire to see some things come to past at the end of the day.

Reminded of my theme song at the beginning of the year..