Retreat

Currently listening: Hillsong - Hosanna

As I try to get something going, I think I got too many questions in my mind at the moment.
Is it too late? Is it worth it? How do I overcome certain weaknesses?
How to carry out certain things? Is there a guidebook? What are the do's and don'ts?
What should be my goal or aim? What should be my focus? How to balance certain things?
It is like something is so near and on the verge of happening, but can't push through the ceiling, and I duno what is it..
But at the end of the day, need to learn to trust and not lean on my own understanding.. hopefully this week's personal retreat will yield something as I quieten down myself..
Time is running out, but I try to remind myself to be patient.. and wait upon His perfect timing.

Where to from here?

Currently listening: Sound the bugle
by: Bryan Adams (OST: Spirit - Stallion of the Cimarron)

Sound the bugle now, play it just for me
As the seasons change, remember how I used to be
Now I can't go on, I can't even start
I've got nothing left, just an empty heart.

I'm a soldier, wounded so I must give up the fight
There's nothing more for me, lead me away
Or leave me lying here

Sound the bugle now, tell them I don't care
There's not a road I know that leads to anywhere
Without a light, I fear that I will stumble in the dark
Lay right down and decide not to go on.

Then from on high, somewhere in the distance
There's a voice that calls, "Remember who you are"
If you lose yourself, your courage soon will follow
So be strong tonight, remember who you are.

Yeah, you're a soldier now
Fighting in a battle
To be free once more
Yeah, that's worth fighting for.

Psalm 143:5-8, 10 - I remember the days of long ago; I meditate on all your works and consider what You hands have done. I spread out my hands to you; my soul thirsts for You like a parched land. Answer me quickly O Lord; my spirit fails. Do not hide your face from me or I will be like those who go down to the pit. Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in You. Show me the way I should go, for to You I lift up my soul. Teach me to do Your will, for You are my God; may Your good Spirit lead me on level ground.

End song: Sing of your great love
By: Planetshakers

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11th Southern Region Church Camp

Theme: A Seed Church
Date: 17-20 June 2010
Venue: Tiara Beach Resort, Port Dickson

Hard to imagine right? The sequoia, one of the largest trees in the world, started off as a tiny seed. Within a seed, no matter how small it is, lies the potential to become a whole tree and bear fruit.

Time also to prepare to do some soul-searching as to what next, since I'm in my final year already..

Photo acknowledgement: kahncious.net

Week 2 - Neonatal ward

Out of nowhere, the paeds MO asked me to follow her.
Me: Where to?
MO: Have you ever done neonatal resuscitation before?
Me: Err... we have a workshop which 1 of our tutors went through with us about the basic stuff lar, using a dummy.
MO: Ok lar then.. take this resuscitation box, follow me to labour room OT. Baby undergoing emergency Caesarean section with thick meconium stained liquor..
Me: *swt* Ok...?? (but I have never actually done 1 before)

That was nice of the MO to try and explain stuff along the way.. in the OT can be really different as compared to simulated environment.. everything must be prepared in advance in anticipation of the baby.. then as soon as the baby is out, its a mad scramble.. (I helped to auscultate the fetal heart - bradycardic), direct suction done as well as use of the meconium aspirator.. we were taught to insert the suction tube as far as our eyes can see, so I was shocked at how deep they actually shoved the tube down the throat and nose.. Baby started to cry.. Situation not as bad as we thought :)

Got bored looking for patient in the ward for my modules, so decided to play high-five with 1 of the kids :p

Excitement in paeds can come in unexpected ways lolz (that is, depending on the type of kids you get)..

International lifegroup :p

Students from Nigeria, Iraq, France (and of course 1Malaysia).

Defining moment

Currently listening: City Harvest Church - Because of You

There was a story about a man who fell off the ledge of a cliff, as it was quite dark and difficult to see. Fortunately, he managed to cling onto a branch at the edge. He looked up and shouted, “Hello??!! Is there anybody up there? Help me!!” Suddenly a voice answered, “Hey there, it’s me – I am God. I can help you, but you will have to let go of that branch.” The man was silent for a moment, and then shouted again, “Err.. Is there anybody ELSE up there???!!!” A group of people who came by later would come across a weird discovery, a dead body with the person’s hands basically 'glued' to the branch, but the ground only a few metres below his feet.

Some do-or-die situations lead people to come to their defining moments, where decisions need to be made which will determine where many things will end up. Today, what is yours? If there is something today that you are perhaps clinging onto tightly at such a time, perhaps God wants to remove that item so that you will once again take that step of faith and look to Him as your source of security.