Believe

Currently listening: Hillsong - Believe

3 weeks spent in O&G.. a short time, but not that productive for me, coz need to get my modules done, and exhaustive ward rounds in the mornings and afternoons leave little time for reading up stuff (what more, with the World Cup going on right now :p)

O&G is filled with various characters, you have a medical officer (MO) who apparently doesn't quite like me (he frequently stares at me with a fierce look), you have registrars who clown around and talk nonsense, you have fierce specialists scolding housemen like nobody's business for not meeting their expectations. And then you have.. me - the final year medical student who roams the wards, supposedly to function like a pre-tagging houseman, but due to the high medicolegal risk of the department, ended up wandering around like a blur case.. Of course, conducted a few deliveries along the way.. am thankful for an MO who willingly supervised my 1st episiotomy from beginning to the end. Was glad because I didn't really get a chance in medical school to actually suture a REAL patient, all my sutures were on models (and pork bellies in Melbourne :p).

1 houseman who saw me in the changing room asked me, "You like to hang around in the hospital is it? Coz for most of us, if there is no reason to stay, and it's already 5pm, just go home. Don't really bother giving a f*#%ing s%#t to what goes on.." No wonder a patient's wife walked up to me the other day to complain that doctors in government hospitals don't have this thing called c-o-m-p-a-s-s-i-o-n.

Need to train myself to sleep less and exercise more.

Got reminded that just as I myself would like to have someone believe in me, I too should not stop believing for a breakthrough, be it in certain situations / people. Especially when you are presented with a half-answered prayer, not knowing what to do, and trying to tell yourself not to be distracted by the time factor.