Unretractable

Freedom of speech.. sometimes it's just hard to understand why people say the things they say.

There was a friend of mine called X, whom I came to know last year. He's a nice guy. Unfortunately, something happened where he lost a very close family member. Earlier this year, me, R and X went to Bukit Bintang to hang out, since it's the break after the exams (it was X's invitation).. X called his long-time friend to come along. However, X decided to go with his friend to Imbi Plaza to have a look at electronics, leaving me and R to wander around aimlessly in Sungei Wang. When it's around evening, we msged X to arrange for a place to meet up (perhaps have dinner), then go back. His reply was for R and myself to go back ourselves first, since he has something else to do. Both of us felt cheated, especially R who was feeling rather discontented. Somehow, X found out that we were a bit unhappy with his conduct since R was grumbling away (R probably thought he was just saying something which is to be treated lightly as a joke, just to deliberately make X feel bad). Unfortunately X kind of took it on a personal note, and when we offered to visit him to check on him and explain our actions, he politely declined. He returned to his hometown before we even knew it. Recently I heard a rumour that he already left the place where we used to study. Don't even know whether I will ever see him again..

Maybe some benefit of the doubt and patience should be the way back then. Maybe I could have comforted R to prevent the unnecessary outburst.

We only think of the "Maybe's" and "could have beens" after irrepairable damage has been done.