Recently..

..I do question myself on how badly do I actually desire to see that something come to past.

It's a personal struggle. I don't know why it arose lately, compared to previous years where I have taken steps of faith before.

And then that soft, still voice came this morning through a thought, "You see, you have been trying to catch a certain feeling / perspective / encouragement through reading certain books, watching certain videos, asking here and thinking there, but you are looking at the wrong place. There is only 1 simple thing required, that is to take that step out of your comfort zone and lay down yourself."