Expectations unfulfilled..mood swings?

Ranting post - i would prefer you not to read it (just felt like typing something to make myself feel better)

Been mourning for 2 hours already..
4.59 pm - I ran and ran all the way from Halls to CMHSE to collect my assignment report (10% of 1st year assessment marks).. for some reason whenever the med faculty has something for us (ie certificates, results, timetables, handouts etc) i'll always be among the first to collect it (don't know why)..so it's no surprise that despite chilly weather conditions that i did not hesitate to dash out into the cold drizzle. made it just in time..expectations were running high, and then........... not what i had expected..

I thought this assignment was pretty easy to score since a fellow senior who stays in the same hall scored almost perfect (minimum 8, maximum 10 for each of 10 sections) despite writing rather 'cincai'.. looking at mine - there were a couple of 6's and 7's here and there (especially on legal and ethics sections plus patient and my own perspectives' comments).. bitter pill to swallow, considering how much effort being put into 5 sleepless nights (ok, fine..it's a little bit last minute as well).. couldn't have picked more complicated things to write for those 4 sections, since i chose to be truthful about the issue i noticed during my GP visit (despite not having much to go on, and since available references are hard to find) and take up the challenge, while others score higher marks for sticking to basic issues such as consent and confidentiality.. but i can be happy with the fact that i score a full 10 for medical sociology and health enhancement sections (surpassing expectations)..

Feels kind of frustrating, especially since i was elated and thankful for my MED 1011 PGO (pass grade only) [in case you didn't know, 1st year med assessment only got pass or fail, no grades] only for this to ruin my day.. [almost felt like crying.. felt like throwing my plastic folder into the dustbin.. felt like screaming my head off.. felt like doing nothing else but sleep, sleep and sleep after devouring my 200g chocolate bar and bag of chips] control.. control.. i shouldn't complain and ought to be grateful that i passed.. (hmm..am i asking too much?)

i shall put this ranting episode behind me for now.. til then, nervous and musculoskeletal system; here i come..